Hey Guys, Sorry to use Insult as a personal message board, but it's been so long since I emailed any of you that I'm certain my address book is hopelessly out of date. Anyhoo, I AM going to be running a game when come home so my question is this. To those who will be there, which would you rather play... A third level D&D game set in a world loosely based on Vampire Hunter D... or A 5th or 6th level Star Wars game, set in the New Jedi Order era, some 25 years after A New Hope. Get back at me, my Email adress is still the same, and I can still be reaced by emailing me through insult.

Hey folks... been a while since I posted, so I figured I'd let the milions and millions of Lio's fans in on what's been going on in my life. The other day I sat down to watch the new Vampire Hunter D movie when what should occur, but my old friend Mr. Seizure. Mad props to my roommates Div and Nick, who not only called an ambulance in a timely manner, but also called my parents to inform them, thus taking the burden of delivering the bad news to them myself off of my shoulders.

In other news of Lio's doomed love life, their seems to be a young lady at work that might pan out into something, but I have to move NOW because I graduate in 2 months

I'll be home shortly also. That'll rule... 3/2 baby... hell yeah...

Meh... I hate everything. My day started off well enough. I had a little cash, so I went grocery store. They had fantastic prices on meat, also a good thing. I even got a Phat RPG book. Then... the shit started. I got to work and put they me in the dish room... FOR THE FIFTH CONSECUTIVE SHIFT. Not to mention that the kid working next to me was a useless fucking meatwad. Then I got home, fully prepared to write the next in a series of my horrible bullshit papers for my women's studies class. And then what happens? The fucking site I'm supposed to get my assignment from is giving me a fucking 404! meh.

So I started on my Womens Studies paper tonight. I didn't want to do it, but it was just one of those things that started to write itself, like an insult post. So, I decided to post it. It's about gender biases in our educational system. Enjoy.

When I was a child, I would attend elementary school daily. Everyday Id sit there, and be puzzled. Why werent there any teachers like me? Was it not ok for boys to be teachers? Where were the male teachers in early elementary school?

Growing up in this highly politically correct time I am part of a powerful but much resented demographic. I am a Caucasian male, the only social group its still ok to poke fun at, dislike, or hate just because. Due to this fact, I do not recognize hidden curriculums or micro inequalities as affecting me. Im not saying they dont exist. However, if they do, I wouldnt notice them, because they all, supposedly, benefit me. I never participated in (or even cared about) school sports, so I never experienced the differences in financial backing. I dont remember teachers saying You cant do that because you are a girl to any of the girls in the class. All in all, I can remember no instances of schools subjecting anyone to the horrors of oppression or pushing morally questionable agendas.

I do have one memory of how my upbringing in school affected my gender identity though, and that is the lack of male teachers in younger grades. You see, its a horrible travesty, and quite illegal, to look at a job and say Its not ok for a woman to do this job. But when we see a male teacher teaching kindergarten, people turn there nose up. A man working with children so young? Many people would find that idea preposterous, questioning the mans intentions. Automatically many would believe the man to be some kind of pedophile. That still happens to this day. But, since this discrimination happens to males its a-ok in everybodys opinion.

When I was a boy of about 5 or 6, I thought that teaching was a girls job, and that men went out and did business or were doctors and lawyers. I knew there were girls that did boy jobs but careers were clearly delineated. I didnt realize that this really affected me in any particular way, but I would have liked to see some male role models early in my education. Not that Im complaining about my male role models, my father was an educated man, a lawyer, with enough knowledge of pop culture to not make him boring. However, not every child is as fortunate to have such a good role model. What about children who dont have a father, or one that mistreats them? I think that if I did have any male teachers it would have given a wider range to base my opinions of how a male should act. It would have been nice to see some people more like me teaching.

If things were this delineated when I was growing up, I can only imagine what they must have been like for my father. At least by the time I was in 4th grade I was starting to see male teachers. Ill bet back in the 50s, when my father was growing up I cant imagine that there would be many male teachers at all. This was also before the time of the Civil Rights movement. Im sure he was subjected to all kinds of stereotypes of what women should be, and what men should be. Even though I may have had things delineated for me as far as gender roles, Im sure they were set in stone for him.

I do not know how education will affect children being born now. We are starting to see more men teaching in the younger grades. Still not nearly as equal as it should be, but change takes time. It is my fear, however, that in later grades, when I truly became comfortable with my gender identity, that young men of tomorrow will be faced with an environment of fear and mistrust. Why would such a thing happen? Ever since the shootings at Columbine, schools have been ferocious in security measures. I think that it will some day get so bad that schools will use gender based profiling to weed out dangerous and aggressive young men. This will only lead boys into feeling that they are feared and untrustworthy, which will instill either low self-confidence or great anger. High school is a difficult time for young men. They do get aggressive, they do get angry. Its a difficult time in their lives, so much is changing, and those feelings are perfectly normal. These policies would make them feel like they are being punished and stigmatized for growing up.

Now that I think about it, the educational system is quite gender biased. But I believe that it goes both ways. Women are not given a fair shake; that much is not in dispute. But, men are not untouched by gender biases either.

Well, I should have been home this weekend. But no... I just seem to be getting fucked in the ass left and right. Well, I'll let you all in on my stunning weekend.

Friday night sucked. I went to a new mexican restaurant in town with Red. I had nachos which tasted like monkey crap spread on roofing tiles compared to the glory that is Jalepeno Heaven. So, as I was enjoying this culinary delight, who should appear to my wonderous eyes but SoulSucker. Heh... Fuck. She walked up in her usual drunken manner and started running at the mouth. I introduced her to Red for like the 37th time, and like all the other times, she forgot who she was. So SoulStealer starts prattling at me. Blah Blah Blah, I miss you, Blah Blah Blah, why don't we hang out anymore? Meh... Grin and bare it... smile and nod till she goes away. Then Red and I hung out a while till we decided to hit another bar. And just so God could laugh at me some more... guess who was there... even drunker. Yup... good ol' SoulSucker. She comes up to me and is all gabby again. "Oh Lio! Hold me" So I abide... and get a quality feel on her boob! So, the night wasn't a total wash.

Saturday night sucked. Stayed home, organized my Mp3 collection. Yes, that was the highlight of my evening...gah.

Well nothing's happening on sunday either... so the weekend sucks...

SHITFUCKMOTHERFUCKERCOCKSUCKERSONOFABITCHRANSACKINGBAGOFMONKEYSHIT! COCKAYASSS!!! Well, you know... I should be sitting at home this weekend, playing some fucking video games with my boys, sippin' a cold one and possibly gettin' a little somethin somethin on. But no. Since God hates me, I'm going to be spending my weekend here. In Penn State. Licking the cat's butt.

Seems my ride punked out on me. So now I have to tolerate this shit hole some more till spring break comes. FUCK!!! I hate this place.

Heheheheeh... Got a question for ya. What is it with me and the ones that have strings attached to them? I mean... the girls I like are either evil, or taken or some other set of circumstances that likes to creep up and punch me in the balls. Case in point last night.

Now I've been seeing this chick back home. Whenever I go home, we usually wind up hanging out and things were going good. Especially over the past break. So last night I was talking to her on AIM. She's been growing tired with CT. Bad memories that sort of thing. She'd talked about moving... but that was some time in the nebulous future. Well, she finally set a date. She's going to be moving to Cali at the end of summer. heheheheh

Well, it looked like it was going to be nice, healthy, productive relationship... so naturally, I knew something had to give. I mean, I'm lucky in that I've got a time limit, and that I know not to get too attached. But, this represented something. It represented a shot at something I've never had before. (No, not sex... ASSHOLES!)

Heheheheh... Well kids, it wouldn't be reality if Lio weren't single. And for all you hot ladies out there that were losing sleep over the fear that Ol' Lio was soon to be taken... rest easy, there's enough o' me to go around.

Till All Are One...

LioConvoy out...

Hoooo boy, Do I have the worst case of senioritis or what? I have no motivation to do anything... I even dropped out of my D&D games, I'm so lazy. I don't want to go to class... I don't want to do anything. It's like I'm so close to the end. I just want nothing more than to leave. Not to mention that thanks to the gay Diversity Credits I have to take make it so that 3 out of my 5 classes are horse shit that I'm never gonna use.

I've been working a lot though... Unfortunately since we're on a two week schedule I don't get paid until next friday at the earliest. Ah well, at least I'll have some dough to spend when I'm at home. I've also been working on loosing some weight recently, I' gained about 40 lbs. back by the end of break. I've lost 20 in the last two weeks. My goal is to be down to 200 lbs. by graduation. Some seem to think this would be too thin for me(I'm told I start to look sickly at 236), but I'd like to be thin at some point.

In other news of the weird, I found out that my freshman year roommate, who I thought had left Penn State is now back at Skook, rooming with my sopomore year roommate... odd stuff. Oh well, Oz is on... I must go.

I hit the enter button while typing the title of that last post. Anyway, The campus is all in an uproar at the possibility of a Philadelphia/Pittsburgh Superbowl. My roommate was so jazzed about the Steelers game yesterday he drank a 12 pack to his dome throughout the course of it.

Normally,I wouldn't care... but I get to go home for Super Bowl weekend! YAY! So strike up the band and gather the troops... I'm coming home.

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