Well Calliander, If Johnny Cash sucked... Then John Coltrane was a boring purveyor of elevator music.  RIP The Man In Black, one of America's greatest storytellers... you will be missed by this insult poster.

HOLY SWEET MERCIFUL CRAP, I HAVE JUST RECIEVED THE SWEETEST NEWS A COMIC BOOK DORK LIKE MYSELF COULD EVER RECIEVE!  The new Batman film, to be directed directed by Memento's Christopher Nolan, has been searching for a star for some time.  This has been weighing heavily on my mind for sometime (yeah, I'm sad and pathetic... Fuck you).  As a life long Batman fan, I must say the casting of almost every Batman has been flawed somehow.  The biggest problem comes from the duality needed to portray both Batman and Bruce Wayne.  One a twisted soul bent on vengeance and protection of the innocent, the other a mask of a foppish playboy, a spoiled child of privelige.

Keaton, My favorite Live-Action Batman, made a passable batman, but his Bruce Wayne was played to comical/over the top at times.  That scene in Vicki Vale's apartment when he confront's the Joker, way too over the top for Bruce Wayne.  Bruce Wayne is a persona created to hide the fucked up side of his personality... He's too controlled to go off on the Joker like that. 

Then there was Kilmer.  Now... I love Val Kilmer, so eccentric, so out there... fantastic.  He had the exact opposite problem of Keaton.  He had a fantastic Bruce Wayne, but his Batman was just bland and too often was dwarfed by Jim Carrey's antics (DON'T GET ME STARTED ON THE JIM CARREY RIDDLER!!!!).  Kilmer's wild eyed, spacy demeanor is a perfect for someone who has had everything handed to them, and thanks to a horrible trauma, is emotionally frozen at the level of an 8 year old (think about it... all of Batman's equipment are just really neat toys... Batarangs anyone?).  But his Batman was just off somehow.

Then there was Clooney.  I'm thoroughly convinced that he landed the gig thanks to a Homosexual crush that director Joel Schumacher had for him.  Batman & Robin was too much an abortion for me to even offer up a valid analysis of his job.  He might have been good... I don't know.  But I do know that you can't polish a turd, and that's what Batman & Robin was. 

Which brings me to the reason why I've written this long winded, and very silly post.  The new Batman film's star.  Now for months they've been trying to find one.  There was a whole bunch of names bandied about.  Ashton Kutcher, Guy Pierce, Christian Bale, Josh Hartnett... and a slew of others whose names and the word "Batman" belong in the same sentence about as much as the words "teeth" and "penis" do.  Now, Ashton Kutcher... Let's think... Kelso as the Dark knight?  NEXT!  Josh Hartnett... I loved him in The Virgin Suicides, but he's way to young to be Batman (at that age Bruce Wayne was still training in Japan".  Guy Pierce...  He'd be a pretty cool, but an issue of being able to play up that duality comes to mind.  I don't know.  Now... CHRISTIAN BALE.  Ok... For those who don't know who the hell I'm talking about. I'll give you a brief rundown.  He's a british actor, who is being considered to follow in Pierce Brosnan's footsteps as Bond in the future Bond movies.  It was this fact that made him the least likely choice because there is no way that he could be Bond if he was associated with Batman.  He also starred in Reign of Fire and Empire of the Sun.  But those movies are not what make me think Bale would be the ULTIMATE Batman.  But one movie he did fills me with that assurance... American Psycho.  It was a film that was all about duality... and, Hell it very easily could have been a Batman movie if you'd just replaced his character's psychosis of murdering random women and street people with putting on tights and beating up criminals.  I've often said that Batman is just as insane as the criminals he hunts, the only reason he is not in a mental hospital is that his psychosis is beneficial. 

It was almost official... the studios wanted Ashton Kutcher, and were not willing to budge.  He's bankable, and they are retarded. But then today, I was cruising my sights (AICN and Dark Horizons), and both delivered a divine mesage to me so sweet, I almost went blind from it's beauty.  CHRISTIAN BALE IS THE NEXT BATMAN!!! HALLELUJAH AMEN HOLY FUCK!

Oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck.  Well, as some of you may have heard, my five year relationshipless streak is over.  I'm two weeks into the relationship, and I'm already starting to panic.  I mean, she's a nice girl, I enjoy spending time with her, it's nice to have someone to be close to... but I don't know.  Something doesn't sit right.  I mean... I don't feel as strongly for her as I have for some other people who have shown me far less affection, or even kindness.  I normally throw my heart at any girl that even looks my way... but for some reason, I can't seem to muster enough emotion. 

My problems only compound from here.  She's nucking futs for me.  She pays me all the attention I've ever wanted.  She's attentive.  And she makes orgasm inducing desserts.  She's everything I say I've ever wanted.  Why am I not happy? 

Another thing is that she isn't a whore.  Which, while nice in that I don't have to worry about her fucking around on me, or diseases... is a double edge sword.  While I don't have to worry about that, she won't actually go through with the deed, until we can both say we are in love.  This frightens me.  I mean, how am I supposed to be in love with her, if I'm freaked out over what's happened so far.  Fuck.

Uhm... tonight was my dinner party.... Now me Arcee and Peps are sitting here at 1 am trying to sober up.  So, we are going to offer up a drunken summation of tonight's events.  But my magickal power goggles should help me write this post.

We started off the evening by eating copious amounts of food.  Then we played drinking games... then I made out with this girl.  uhm... this post is much shorter than I thought it would be.... fuck.

What to do?  What to do, what to do?  What do you do when someone you regard as family does something that you regard as so hurtful, you can't even think about it without going into frothing anger?  What happens when you've been hurt so bad by a situation that you can't even think about how life will be the same again?

See, In past times I'd be all like "Gah, I'm so angry!  I'm going to get my vengeance!  You're out of my life!"  But, that's not the way... in the end those types of reactions don't wind up in anything but a lot of horseshit, that ultimately serves no one well.  And besides... I've hardly been a paragon of loyalty and virtue these days.  I keep telling myself that.  It's kind of one of the things that's been keeping me sane.  A sense of "Karmically, Lio, you could have gotten kicked in the groin worse."  Logically, I don't even really have a right to be angry.  That still doesn't dull the pain... not by a longshot. 

So, now I'm faced with a question.  Is this transgression so bad that I can completely disavow family?   But Bean's post raises an even more interesting question.  Where does loyalty end and the pursuit of your own personal happiness begin?  Should we expect any type loyalty from anyone?  Even family. 

I mean, friends... sure... you can have friends that you keep at arms length once they have wronged you.  You can expect them to betray you again and make preparations to avoid it.  To paraphrase Frank Herbert, the first step in avoiding a trap is being aware of it's existance.   However... Family... that's a little trickier.  My instinct will forever to be to trust this person.  Trust him not to hurt me.  Trust him not to break my heart.  But I can't.  And I know this. 

This fact is why I'm so confused right now.  Part of me says "After so long, and so much, this is such a minor infraction in the history of things.  Let it slide."  Then another part says "Screw all that, he knew... he knew full well that if he did this, your reactions would not be pretty.  There are consequences to all actions."  So, my final verdict is very much up in the air.  Any suggestions?

indeed it is...

Hey man, good to see you posting on here... New blood is always welcomed on this sight, and is much needed.  I look forward hearing your wild rants and ravings. 

I don't have much to say about myself these days... pretty boring... catch y'all later.

Hello, Hello, Hello...

It's that time of year again, the air is warmer, the sun is shining, the birds are chirping... that's right, It's only one month away from Lio's Birthday!!!  And what is this year's theme you might ask?  It's none other than Lio's BIG ASS  MUD WRASSLIN' PARTY.

Now, I know this announcement is useless because most of you live on the other side of the fuckin' country, just thought I'd let you know...

Well folks been awhile since I've posted... basically because I have nothing worth saying in the grand scheme of things... but that's not going to stop me this evening. 

Been in a weird place recently... My confidence is at an all time high, though I have no real reason why that is, I've just been feeling more secure.  Maybe I'm not so much secure as I am sure that I don't care what others think.   I'm still no closer to solving my ever present problems with the female gender, but I feel very little apprehension anymore.  I don't know.

I'm also feeling a little more confident now that I'm aiming my life toward something.  I've been looking into getting my certification to become a history teacher.  After a year of just floating around blindly, it feels good to have an aim.  Oddly ironic since I was such a disgruntled youth as Stone is so fond of pointing out.  But I can remember a few teachers who really reached out to me, and made high school not such a hellish pit of ego shattering.  I figure if I could be one of those teachers to one student, it would be worth doing.  The older I get the more I realize that I don't think I have the heart for business.  I want something to do where I feel I'm doing something besides amassing wealth. 

Also... another thing... if I ever agree to go on a blind date... somebody rip my dick off and beat me in the face with it.  Why do we as enlightened human beings do this to ourselves?  I went out on one this evening... MEH.  My co-worker hooked me up with an ex of his (First big mistake).  But hey, he said she was a nice girl, and she was.  We went out, but she got lost trying to get to my house, so by the time she got here the only place open was the Diner.  HARDLY the most romantic setting, but hey, I can make do.  We get there, and there are these HORRIBLE, long, awkward silences... just no chemistry.  Just a strange evening... don't ever do one of these...

Good christ man... I mean, I saw her the other day and didn't think she'd gotten that big... but holy christ... that tank top's screamin' "Lindsay, I DON'T FIT YOU!!!" She's a land monster! When is she going to go all "binge & purge"? I mean, she did this once before and got skinny again... I mean... please... for the first time I can't say "Fuck yeah, I'd break my dick of in Calliander's sister's ass..." Meh... who am I kidding... I'm desperate enought that I'd still probably hit it. On that note, I'm gonna go eat a bullet. Thank you... Goodnight... Fuck...