That's absolutely right, Stoney-o... Party at my place Saturday at 8. Fun times for all, booze, music and fun. And yes, anyone reading this is invited.

Alright people... it's monday... and I still have heard no confessions. No apologies. No "I'm sorry I broke my word to you" 's. NOTHING. To those who have not yet confessed or apologized to me... believe me... You're going to be sorry. To those who have betrayed me... You'll not do it again.

The saddest part is that you have already read my previous post and believe it has nothing to do with you. That's why it's going to hurt me when I blindside you with this. But the fact that you believe what you have done to me is not wrong is just further proof that I cannot trust you to be my friend. You've fucked me before, you fucked me now, and I am now convinced that you will do it again.

I have no place in my life for people who cannot keep there word. Your word is golden. If a man does not have his word he is no man at all. Word is life... You told me that. Unfortunately, a more fitting discription for you would be "Word is shit".

And to the one who has betrayed me and does not read this site, I'm going to lace into you tonight. I'm going to let a rip... and I'm going to enjoy it. And after I've berated you and shit-canned you out of my life... that's when I have my fun. You see, I'm going to destroy your family. Just like you did mine. It's gonna be sweet.

See ya tonight...

My my my... You think you know someone. You surround yourself with people. You call them family. You look upon them as brothers. Then... Then they break their word to you. See, I'm faced with a dilemma here folks. I've found out a great wealth of information that was kept from me recently. A lot of information that should have been revealed over time, but since it was all dumped on me at once, it has roughly same effect as keeping a lit cigarrette in an oil refinery.

I've learned of things. Bad things. Kept from me. Broken words. Secret allegiances. Things that were wise to be kept from me. But now that I know... A hard rain is going to fall.

It hurts me to have to get my vengeance. The people I have to get vengeance on are very close to me. I don't want to seek vengeance, but something in me yearns for it. So, I'm going to offer a reprieve. Not everyone knows everything I know. And I'm sure I don't know everything that has gone on. The question is What do I know about who? I'm giving everyone I know until Monday to come clean with me in anyway they may have crossed me. If everything I know hasn't been repeated to me I start doing things. Bad things...

Well... I managed to contact the girl I'm currently enamored with today. It was pretty cool... I'd been putting off calling for a long while because I honestly had nothing worth saying. But I recently decided to run an rpg that we're both pretty enthusiastic about... so that was a good motivation to call... We talked for a while and she actually knows a lot more on many subjects in the game than I do. To those who know me... let me stress... SHE KNOW MORE ABOUT WHITE WOLF THAN I DO! That's a pretty absurd statement. But I don't know... This is kind of weird. She's one of only a few girls that I could see myself hanging with even if there was no attraction for me.

You see, I'm weird about girls. I love women, and screwing around and all that that entails... but I don't really know many girls that I like as friends. For instance... I want to shag just about any girl I've ever met, Out of every woman I've ever met... I can think of maybe 3, including this girl, that I'd like to hang out with even if there was no attraction and no chance of anything happening between us.

Most of my female friends are just girls that I screwed around with (or tried to) but hang around with them just because I don't have the nerve to say "Go Away. I mean... there are exceptions... as was the case with Red, I started out just trying (and failing miserably) to be a friend, then wound up going after her, and then it developed into a beautiful friendship just because of the sheer amount of life experiences we shared. However that's rare.

Most of the time I just meet a girl, try to charm her (What kind of nutjob is going to go after me for my looks?), and succeed or fail with her, and then I don't care anymore... For the most part I have a low bullshit tolerance, and bullshit is something that happens with a lot of female friendships...

But this is odd. I'd love to go out with this girl. But I realized on the phone that even if nothing happens... I stand to make a good friend... and that's kind of nice.

Sweet Holy Crap... Man, Well I had a great birthday party a few days ago. Much thanks to all who were there you made for a kick ass time. I got to see some folks I hadn't in a while, and I got to meet some new people as well... all in all a splendid evening.

Also in attendence was a friend of a friend, who I am convinced is perfect for me. She loves White Wolf rpgs, Video Games, and to top it all off, I haven't seen a girl with a jab like this since Kim. Luckily, at the end of the evening I got her number. Now... I don't know if she's interested in me, but I'm definately going to try my damnedest to pursue her. My only problem is I have no idea how I'm going to go about it. She lives very far away, so therein lies one problem. Plus there's my insanely low self esteem which is a constant hurtle to jump over. I don't know why I'm doing this... like she's way to attractive for me to even think about chasing after her without getting her crazy drunk first. The last time I fell this fast this soon was with Soul Stealer... and we all know how that ended. Of course she was a frat matress, and this new girl isn't. I don't know... as per usual, I'm completely insane... meh.

Hey Levres, long time no hear. Well as for your questions... As far as Tori goes I believe she reached her apex at Boys For Pele. Little Earthquakes was ok, but she was unproven and I think she curbed a lot of her artistical whims merely to please the suits at the record company. It's way more accessable than any of her other albums but it takes the fewest chances and there for falls short. Under the Pink, widely considered her best album was also good. In this album she allowed herself more artistic freedom and experimented much more. This album has a few standouts like God, The Waitress, and Yes Anastasia, but the rest of the album may as well be called Little Earthquakes II: the Revenge. Now Boys for Pele... this one holds a special place in my heart, for it was the CD that introduced me to Tori.

I'd just gotten back from a trip to the carribean with Calliander and was looking to blow some of my unspent vacation money. I bought a few CDs... one was Boys for Pele. It blew me away. In this album she was really trying to stretch the boarders of what you cold do with antiquated instruments, I see a lot of this type of experimentation with Rasputina which is a large reason why I am so enthralled by them, You should try looking into them... they might be a little dark for your tastes though. Her use of a harpsichord played through a Marshall Stack floored me. This song also holds my favorite Tori song, The Doughnut Song.

Then She came out with Choirgirl. Here she added the use of synthesizers and a full band and it just completely drowned out alot of her beautiful voice. Here she took her experimentation just a little too far. In a few songs, like hotel and she's your cocaine the electronica edge did yeild some very cool results, but for the most part, this one missed the target.

Then came To Venus and Back. The album without a soul. I don't mean that as a bad thing, individually some of the songs are incredible, Spring Haze ranks right up their with Doughnut Song, but the album lacked cohesion. You see, when I listen to a Tori song, I can immediately tell you what album it's from. That's not because I've memorized the track listings (which I have) but because each album had a soul to it. You can track what Tori was feeling and going through at the time. Whether it was her dealing with her rape in earthquakes, or the loss of her 7 year fiance in Boys for pele... you could tell. This one was like, "Well this song could have come of Under the Pink, or that one sounds like it was ripped right off of Choirgirl". This problem stems from the fact that Venus was never meant to be an album. Originally it was meant to be a CD of live performances and a Cd of B sides. Then Tori started adding new songs to the B sides. Eventually she added so many new songs she decided to scrap the B sides altogether and make a new album. This was a surprise even to her. That's why it came out a year after choirgirl, instead of her traditional 2 year break between albums.

Strange Little Girls... What can I say about this abortion. This was a CD full of covers so bad I DIDN'T BUY IT! Some more shameless covers include Eminem's '97 Bonnie and Clyde and Neil Young's Heart of Gold. Hearing her do Eminem was like eating pizza with Ice Cream on top... I love them both, but they are positively repugnant together.

Now, the last hope that I speak of in my last post was Tori's new album. Due out on October 24th, this unnamed album shall be the deal breaker for me. It is all new material and she will be touring to promote it. However, my hopes are not high. The basic fact of the matter is that TORI NEEDS TRAGEDY IN HER LIFE TO MAKE GOOD MUSIC. The first 4 albums were all inspired by personal tragedy. Her life is currently going very well, she's happily married with a 2 year old daughter now. We should be happy for her, but chances are the music we receive is going to be complete and utter tripe.

by the way, I don't enjoy Drips or Superman from the new Eminem CD.

So, both Stone and I saw Spider-man today... He loved, I had mixed feelings about it. Anyhoo... So... Stone and I got to talking and we got on the subject of what insult posters would be best to play what superheroes in a movie. Here's what we've figured out so far:

Caniprokis: The Thing - A good natured fellow who can turn into a bull in a China shop.
Stone: The Iron Man - A brilliant booze lovin' business man.
Lio: The Beast - A wordy and verbose romantic, trapped in a body he hates.
Peps: The Hulk - A quiet academic prone to impulse control problems.
Calliander: Nightcrawler - A wiry, agile and fun loving dude who lightens the mood in any situation.
Pappy: Giant Man - A mad scientist with a few loose screws.

That's about all we could come up with... any other suggestions for posters not mentioned?

THESE MOTHERFUCKERS ARE BITING OUR RHYMES!!! PAPPY CAN'T YOU FUCKING DESTROY THEIR COMPUTER SYSTEMS OR FINANCIALLY CRIPPLE THEM SOMEHOW?

Well ya know you make some valid points Gatekeeper. But I still believe all cloning should be legal. I mean... You make the point about adoption... and I completely agree that there are plenty of children out there that need good homes. But it takes years and many thousands of dollars to adopt a child. Not to mention that there are certain people out there that wouldn't feel right raising a child they know isn't theirs. I myself don't think I could adopt a child if it turned out I couldn't have children. I don't think I could do it.

Then there's the issue of cloning individual people. This type of technology would be expensive and unfeasible to do on a consumer level. Besides it would just be like having an identical twin, only several years younger than yourself. So what? Are identical twins inherently evil? That's what Bush is stating.

Then there was Gatekeeper's comment about the positive aspect of cloning individual organs. Everyone agrees this would be fantastic. But what no one understands is that we need to develop and refine human cloning technology before we can reach the level of understanding that would allow us to do this. If it's banned, we will never reach this level of technology. Or what's worse is that someone else will and not use it for the benevolent means we have. Food for thought...

Man, fuck that enter button.

So, most people know I'm not a political man. It's my belief that most politicians are merely figureheads to lull us into the belief that we have some form of control over our government. The true power resided in our corporations. The true governing body is the board of directors.

That said, I finally developed an opinion about Prez G.Dub. He's a useless meatwad. I watched him deliver a speech to the senate on human cloning, one of the few political issues I actually feel passionate about (the other being censorship). He spent an hour expounding his theories about the sacredness of human life. You know, just as sacred as those men he sent to the electric chair. Just as sacred as the thousands of Afghans we bombed. I'm not saying any of those things were wrong, in fact, I whole-heartedly agree with them. I'm just saying, don't be such a fucking hypocrite.

Some people think a ban on all cloning is the answer. Others think that banning reproductive cloning would be ok, while allowing research cloning would be alright. I think both should be allowed.

Are you going to tell me that some poor fuck who is a parapelegic is going to be imprisoned for the rest of his life in his own fucking body just because of some ridiculous moral squabble? WHY? Because it's God's will? WHAT KIND OF FUCKED UP MEDIEVAL LOGIC IS THAT! Are you telling me that women who can't give birth naturally have no right to a child that is of their own blood? WHY?

Let's not even look at any of those issues, but let's look at the world stage. So we ban cloning. So what. That doesn't stop other countries from doing it. We'll fall behind in the field of biotechnology. Wowee, yay for us. We don't genetically engineer our children. Aren't we such moral fantastic people. Meanwhile China is raising an army of supersoldiers. We're also preventing ourselves from developing technologies that would grow from this. Like individually cloned organs and limbs. Organ recipients would no longer have to take immune system depressants (effectively giving themselves AIDS, but not as permanant) to keep their bodies from rejecting the very organs keeping them alive.

This thinking is blind. This thinking is old. This is the same thinking that declared Gallileo a witch because he postulated that the solar system did not revolve around the Earth. The same thinking that accused Socrates of being a corruptor of the youth. The same thinking that led to dozens of innocent young women being burned to death in Salem. If either part of this ban is passed, I fear for our future as a world power.