Well... I managed to contact the girl I'm currently enamored with today. It was pretty cool... I'd been putting off calling for a long while because I honestly had nothing worth saying. But I recently decided to run an rpg that we're both pretty enthusiastic about... so that was a good motivation to call... We talked for a while and she actually knows a lot more on many subjects in the game than I do. To those who know me... let me stress... SHE KNOW MORE ABOUT WHITE WOLF THAN I DO! That's a pretty absurd statement. But I don't know... This is kind of weird. She's one of only a few girls that I could see myself hanging with even if there was no attraction for me.
You see, I'm weird about girls. I love women, and screwing around and all that that entails... but I don't really know many girls that I like as friends. For instance... I want to shag just about any girl I've ever met, Out of every woman I've ever met... I can think of maybe 3, including this girl, that I'd like to hang out with even if there was no attraction and no chance of anything happening between us.
Most of my female friends are just girls that I screwed around with (or tried to) but hang around with them just because I don't have the nerve to say "Go Away. I mean... there are exceptions... as was the case with Red, I started out just trying (and failing miserably) to be a friend, then wound up going after her, and then it developed into a beautiful friendship just because of the sheer amount of life experiences we shared. However that's rare.
Most of the time I just meet a girl, try to charm her (What kind of nutjob is going to go after me for my looks?), and succeed or fail with her, and then I don't care anymore... For the most part I have a low bullshit tolerance, and bullshit is something that happens with a lot of female friendships...
But this is odd. I'd love to go out with this girl. But I realized on the phone that even if nothing happens... I stand to make a good friend... and that's kind of nice.