Gatekeeper and/or Lio, since you have done Atkins, I was interested in doing it, even read the book, but I don't think it'll work for me because I don't like enough of the foods you have to eat. For a girl who doesn't eat seafood or eggs or ham, what would you suggest I eat? I tried it for a few days at the beginning of the year and I ended up eating mostly bacon and some vegetables. My mother didn't think that eating a pound of bacon in a week could be healthy.

Lio, as for your music reviews, you liked Tori's Boys for Pele that much? I like it, but I think I'd rather listen to Little Earthquakes or Under the Pink. I have to agree (I hope I understood correctly) with your opinion of Strange Little Girls. It really was attrocious. Is she coming out with some of her own stuff anytime soon? I hope so. Also, I am a big fan of Eminem's new CD. Which two songs didn't you like? My Dad's Gone Crazy really started to grate on my nerves after just one time through. I liked the rest though.

Yeah, I think that's all I got for now. Hope everyone is enjoying their summers or whatever. Mine is going good with the exception of not seeing Wilson as much as I'd like. Hey, these are the things that make a relationship stronger, right? Yeah, that's what I tell myself.

1212 Out.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CANIPROKIS

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Fortunately, fear not my good people, there is no truth to this.

From a site I'll link to below:
"The experts are saying it's a hoax, a fabricated story. We've checked with several sources for veterinary medicines and veterinary training schools and none of them has ever heard of Progesterex. The Food and Drug Administration, which regulates medications for both humans and animals, has no knowledge of it. The other drug mentioned, Rohypnol, does exist and has the reputation of being a date-rape drug. According to the FDA, it's not legal in the United States but is used in Europe as, among other things, a sedative. The FDA says it not only induces sleep, but those who have taken it frequently cannot remember anything that happened while they were under the influence of the drug."
http://www.truthorfiction.com/rumors/progesterex.htm

Thank God. There are already so many things to worry about, who needs another as bad at this?

Here's a question. Where are they? Is that one of their homes do you think? Look on the dresser, next to the plant. Is that a sugar thing from a diner?

Thank god I've never been in this situation and none of my close friends have either. My aunt, unfortunately, had a horrible experience with a guy that she was living with. He abused her, mentally, physically, sexually, and not just punching you in the face type of stuff, but really perverse, this guy is way fucked up type of stuff. Why did she stay? Cause he threatened to hunt her down and kill her kids. She believed he would have, we all did. I think she could have left if it was just her, but somehow by staying she was protecting her kids, at least for a little while. When he finally moved on to raping and beating her 9 year old daughter (he wanted her to have his baby -- I don't even know if she was physically ABLE to have a baby yet), well, then she got the strength to get them all the hell out of there.

Her and her kids all had to go to therapy and we're quite right for a while. They're fine now, pretty well adjusted and everything. Oh as for the guy, well to get away from him, my aunt had to kill him. It was probably the smartest and bravest thing she ever did.

It's a lot harder than you think. It's easy for us on the outside to say, well he treats you like shit, so just leave him. There's a lot more that goes into it though. That's my two cents anyhow.

On a more pleasant note, it's Wilson and Levres' one year anniversary, so congratulations guys. I love you both!

Ha ha, it's funny to talk about myself as if I was someone else.

Then there is the mall, oh God, the mall. I hate it with a passion. I hate people. I hate all the bells. I hate how everything is so expensive. I hate everything about it. My feet hurt. I get thirsty and have to pay an arm and a leg for a trashy soda. I can never find what I want and then I go back and forth about what to buy. It's awful. I think a big part of hating the mall is hating people. I hate people so much. They're trash, a good 95% of them. How is that for Christmas spirit? They're fat and they're stupid and annoying and oh how I need something to make me relax. I walk by these people dressed like freaks. Hey, self-expression of whatever bullshit, you can dress however you want, I don't care. But don't be surprised when people look at you like the freak you're dressed up to be. People are rude and ... oh how I hate the malls and the holidays.

What ever happened to Christmas being the best time of the year? When you could stretch it out for the whole month of December and it was happy. There were lights everywhere and Christmas music and people seemed happy. I don't know, maybe I was just a delusional child. I have no money and that ruins the holidays which is just a reminder that everything has become so materialistic. Enough banter about this.

So I bought the Atkin's Diet book and I'm going to start that soon, hopefully Monday if I can read enough to know what to do. I'm not obese or even terribly overweight, but I'm fat enough to hate myself. I'd like to lose at least 40 pounds, 50 would be good. I've been near my goal weight before and I was so happy. It was like I was a different person. I don't really know how I gained all the weight back, but whatever, I want it gone for good. I don't want people to tell me to eat a salad. I don't want people to look at me in restaurants and think "that girl could afford to skip a meal" like I think about fat people. Fat girls aren't pretty and I don't want to be one. Wish me luck.