This will matter to no one but Pappy, Wilson, and maybe danz0r if he reads this still. If you're not one of those guys, don't bother reading this as it will most likely have nothing interesting to you contained herein.

I'm sorry that you think that I, Wilson, or/and both of us is unapproachable or unwilling to listen. Speaking for at least myself, I don't want to be. Pappy, you can talk to me anytime. I'm usually the one bringing up the apartment because I want to live here in Amherst over the summer. If we get an apartment, I'll live there. If not, I should start looking for a sublet, or a job in Branford. Either way, to me, this is not fall that I'm planning for, it's THIS summer. Please talk to me about it, I need to know what is going on so I know what I need to do and what kind of money I need to have for whatever is going to happen.

Here's the thing. Wilson and I want to live together. I love him very much and I know he loves me. We live together in my room anyhow. Pappy, you're the one that started the reference of my room as "home" and the reference of Wilson's room as "danz0r's room." You know that we live together now. Moving off campus together would just make it legal and more convenient for us to do something that's going to happen one way or another. Wilson and I want to live together. He's 20 and so I am just so you know. Yes, it's a committment, but I plan to make bigger committments to him than just a 12 month lease, so it's not a big deal.

Wilson and I can't really afford a one or two bedroom by ourselves. Plus, we WANT you to live with us, and we WANT danz0r to live with us too. If you don't, we have to find other people to and that prospect is not as good. Worst case, I live in the room I have now and Wilson gets some random room on campus, hopefully a single so he doesn't have to deal with some random roommate. He'll hate that, and he'll resent you for his situation. It's a huge pain in the ass the way we are living now and that's just what we'll be doing again.

So worst case for the new apartment is Wilson and I fight a lot. Then I either suck it up, and continue living there (which bigs boys and girls can do -- deal with their problems rationally), or I eat my part of the rent and I move out, or I bail on you leaving WILSON stranded with my section of the rent. Either way, you're not really affected. You're not affected monetarily and if don't like our bitching, put on your headphones, talk a walk, or just tell us to shut the fuck up. That simple.

You saw the place today. I know you like it. The three bedroom would be sweet. Even if danz0r doesn't end up living with us, and I really hope he CAN live with us, we can find someone else or we should each pay a little more. Besides, there are no 2 bedroom vacancies. It's nice and it is not going to be as bad as you say.

I'll be on campus most of the day (like talking 8:30 am to 8:30 pm) Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. On Tuesdays and Thursday, I'll be working or at the house, but you'll be at class. I really won't see you that much. Wilson and I won't see each other that much either, probably less than now actually.

I would like you to point out when we're fighting. I don't think we bicker like you say. I think sometimes we joke around and you take it that we're serious. Hunny, lighten up. We're not fighting. I think Wilson and I get along good. There have been a few bumps along the way, but we're two reasonable people and we have worked through all the problems that we have faced so far and we can do the same in the future. Don't worry so much!

Live a little Pappy. You're only young once, enjoy it. You don't really want to live with random people. Wouldn't you rather know what you're getting into? Are we really that bad??

1212 Out.