If you read this and you think this sounds like it could pertain to you, if you read this and you think it pertains to something you have recently done, then maybe you might want to be angry with yourself. Use your misdirected anger for some good and make a few changes in your character. Your anger will own you if you let it.

A Poem by GIRLNEXTDOOR: "TORN" copyright May2001 All Rights Reserved Plagiarists and Violators will be prosecuted to the fullest extent of the law.

Anger crushes, you live with it day to day
Wallowing in your pity and crying over your mishaps
Speaking as if you have no faults
I bet you think youre better than those you criticize
Cursing and breaking valued possessions
Disgracing your reputation to those who know you best
Pitiful display and you repress your thoughts
Talk is cheap and yet you cant afford to open your mouth
Leaving with hands clenched in rage
Calming yourself is not something you can attest too
Needing others to stop your inner violence
I watch you rip yourself to shreds
Even when you win the battle you have lost peace of mind

A Riddle by GIRLNEXTDOOR: "TRUTH" copyright MAY 2001 All Rights Reserved Plaigerists and Violators will be prosecuted to the fullest extent of the law

I am a part of life that hurts because I am not always fair.
I can make you feel betrayed; I can make you feel aware.
"I will never lie to you" is the eternal motto I proclaim.
Give me thanks, that's big of me but, I will hurt you just the same.
Someone who lives with me, will always stand in your defense.
To speak with veracity is using me at someone else's expense.

I have been known to cause trouble and I often get in the way.
To ignore my existance is sinful, so be careful what you say.
To have a healthy personality, I hear, I am a must.
If I ever stear you wrongly, it is the fault of my brother, trust.
If you don't have any morals, no purpose will I serve.
However my sister conscience will give you what you deserve.

Those of you that are blinded and ignore my existance,
Know that it is morally wrong to be willingly innocent.
Do not stand aside and wait for someone else to work your will.
Express your true colors so the angered may know who to kill.
If you swear to me, I will protect you as long as you dont lie.
Now I ask you with all with pure intent, who or what am I?

PRICELESS

I have an aquaintance whom I have known for over a year. I would have considered her a friend but she does shit that is extremely uncool. My friend, Ace, has had the hots for her for 2 semesters and she treats him like crap. One day she's all on his nutts, rubbing his back and kissing his face, and the next she blows him off for some frat pig. She has a laugh that everyone knows is fake and she tries so hard to fit in to his little circle of friends but, we all know what she is really like. He just can't see that she is a trifling little hussy. She practically fucks guys in front of him and he is so weak that he keeps trying to please her. He gives her presents and waits around for her calls. I am so sick of hearing his sob stories about how she's fuckin with his heart and not his dick. Scandalous Hoe, you probably don't think I care about how you treat my friend. Well, listen here douche investor, I do care and no matter how close you think we are, I am still closer with Ace. You need a kick in the head and a kick to the curb. I know he has told that what you are doing is wrong but, maybe it didn't sink in. I want you to know that I have offered my social services and he has asked me not to get involved. This is my informal involvement. You are used goods and I personally don't see why he likes you so much. Ugly people think beauty is on the inside...so this is probably your philosophy. If this is true you are the ugliest skank I have ever met! I personally don't think your physique is that fab either. Grow some tits and do something with your blond strings. Get a clue. Ace is the most romantic, sexually expressive, respectful guy friend I know. Make a fucking decision already. If you don't want to fuck him, back the fuck off. If you do, make a fucking commitment! He doesn't want a one night stand and he doesn't want you to come over to his crib with frat cock clinging to your lack of hips.

Hoochie if you assume this post is directed at you, then it probably should be. This post should have no bearing on my relations with you, seeing as that you are a user and never call me unless you want something. I am sure that won't change. Have an enlightened Day. *~GIRLNEXTDOOR~*

Sweet well tempered honest purity hurts a poet's sensitive heart and all the shit they spue on paper causes me to want a black magic marker. Writers who are always deep are usually talking out of their ass and they make very little sense. It often reminds me of staring into a very shallow toilet as I prepare myself to vomit.

I have alot of work to do and this fucking sux! Picture this finals participants : your sitting naked on a beach full of gorgeous people...and you fit in very nicely. A beautiful person of the opposite sex brings you a drink and a joint. If you dont want them you send them away...if you do want them you take them, and they are free. You roll on to your stomach and another beautiful person comes over and rubs your back with a little sun tan oil and you say ...that was great hun, now can you fan me...it's a little warm out here. Three beautiful people flock around you with fans and stay there creating artificial breeze until you say, thanks that was wonderful, you can go now. To make things better, you don't need to feel badly about the good looking people waiting on you because you know that they are being payed well and that they are really fucking happy to please you. That is where I want to be. Unfortunately that is not even remotely true ...and I have fucking work to do. This Sux.

I had a very disturbing experience this week and it amazes me how some people can be so damn stupid. Some people just dont know when they aren't liked! I mean, I was so mean to this kid, he refused to excuse himself. Dirty looks and serious creepy vocals did not make him depart. Do you really think I want to hang out with a total stranger who is a suicidal, depressing , cock swallower, with a foot fetish, who wants the complete strangers to know their life story. FUCKER where ever you are, You are more wacked than a three headed prince in a tomb full of crack sucking ducks that speak French!

I meet this mismatched loner dancing around some trees. My friends and I are friendly to him because he's sober and alone on a Thursday night. It sux to be you. Then you mooch our ciggarettes and then later tell me you don't smoke. Sorry, I dont think your new habit makes you any cooler. Your a phony, pathetic, weakling. We go to leave and you follow with us. I am nice, so I say "...why don't you come with us." BIG mistake. You dont make one bit of sense the whole evening. You contradicted yourself with every topic you discussed. This reject spent time arguing agaisnt opinions he had made moments before. Talking to hear yourself speak is annoying. Your a spiritual freek job. You analyze everything. You eat Ketamine like candy. My mother told me never to take candy from strangers, thanks anyway, you can shove your crank up your ass and then lick it out. Didn't your mother tell you to never overstay your welcome. Have you no social graces? Sitting and listening to your miserable life story was a waist of 4 hours of my life. I can not believe when we all went for breakfast, you wanted to come with us. I didn't get to sleep at all, or get any work done, and why? Hmmmm, because you wouldn't go home until nine in the morning. I had visitors from out of town, they couldn't go home. They also couldn't get any sleep. Thank you for the foot rub...but, if I had known it was going to make you blow a load, I wouldn't have even let you near my feet. Then you have the audacity to ask my friends (guys) if they want a foot rub! Remember when you asked if you could come over and rub my feet again...? The answer is no. I do not want your company EVER. You told me I scare you because I am a college aged female with a weapon! He asked me if it hits me will it make a boo boo? What kind of 21 year old man says BOO BOO! It is a wrist rocket, what do you think? I think it can put a dent in your skull, shall we experiment?

I am glad you felt my room has a "comfortable atmosphere", alot of people do. I never meant to make you feel so comfortable that you would feel compelled to announce your bisexuality. You announced that you want to come out of the closet to a room full of straight strangers. I mean, we were the first people you told. Don't you think someone who knows you, would care a little more. I knew you were a cock sucker after five minutes of your horrific...company. I have no problems with gayness. I just think their is a time and place to talk about your selx life, and it isn't the place around strangers. Like it is going to matter to me if you eat shlong. I never showed any interest in you...so I certianly don't care when you masterbated last, how you do it, and all about your love for swank. Please leave my guy friends alone, they like punani.

STIX. I am talking to you, poop pusher... keep your bedroom experiences to yourself. Don't ever knock on my door or I will be forced to give you a grand boo boo. I hope for your sake you learned something from my presence...maybe you learned that when you don't respect people, you get disrespected.

SLAB, A SLICE, A CHUNKA

This is for the women.

The men will most likely enjoy it as well but, I found the questionable computer generated MASTER COCK to be visibly pleasing. I hope you all enjoy the eye candy.