Levres, I feel compelled to respond to your rant.
Of course life doesn't live up to your expectations. It doesn't really live up to any of our expectations. Did you ever watch "The Breakfast Club"? That part at the end when Ally Sheedy says that her home life is 'unsatisfying?' And Emilio Estevez says of course it's unsatisfying, everyone's home life is unsatisfying. That's why we move out. That's what life is, maybe that's the point of life, to keep trying to better your position, and make yourself happy. I don't think that any of us will ever be ina position where we recieve no pain, or go through any hardship, because life would be boring that way.
Live your life the best you can. That's all you expect from yourself, and that's all anyone can expect from you. You don't need counseling, you don't need to talk to a stranger, because what you feel is normal. We all have these rough parts in our lives. And it helps to have a guy like wilson around, you won't do much better than him. Just calm down. Sitting at home and sulking or wasting time wishing your life was better won't help, it will only make it worse. Do something about it. No, your life isn't that bad. You have good friends who will always be behind you. That's all I have to say about that.