ok as most of you know i have been the most miserable fuck for a while now and i have no idea what brought this on but you know what its over!!!!! i had suck a fucking realization today i dont know it came from writeing some emails that i think i just needed to write. and i got done took a shower and in the middle of my shower my attitude just fliped and chamged and i saw what a stupid fuck ive been and how im not like that im a happy person and i have such wonderful friends and a fucking awsome girlfriend and a great family and a good life and that i shouldent dwell on the stupid shit. im happy and it feels so good i had really forgotton what it felt like hehe:)