This probably won't be a terribly long rant since I am busy. Busy with school and work. I am starting to feel a bit crunched. Not in terms of work load at school.. just in general. There are a few reasons. The most immediate reason is because I have to make a presentation tomorrow in a class, so I have to prepare for that. Plus the same class has a 10 page paper due as well tomorrow. Unrelated to the presentation basically. And like.. I got together with my group mate last night to work on it.. he was here for like 3 hours, and we did nothing. So we just divided the work up, and we are now trying to get our own sections done in time.
In a slightly more general sense, I don't really know where I stand this semester. I have been doing a lot of things this semester that one would think would cause a good GPA decline. Like.. even on the day before I have a 10-page paper and a presentation due.
I feel like I am having one of the best semesters yet.. like, I am taking decent courses. I don't really know about any of my grades, so maybe thats why the semester feels good.
To step back again and look from farther away, the crunch I feel is probably tied into what is coming next in my life. Where will I be working? Where will I be living?
I want to get the fuck out of the northeast. I know that.
I want to work for myself. I know that.
The problem is, making both of those things happen. One is difficult due to the way the world is. The other is difficult because it isn't so compatible with the other. Both of those two sentences can be applied to both of the above two statements.
Soo... I dont know what I am going to do, and I don't have any fucking idea how to decide.
Even harder of a decision would be where to live if I could live anywhere. What is convenient, nice, warm, etc etc etc. I don't know.
I don't know.